good night. bad night. early night. late night.

i start work at payless shoes on wednesday. im stoked?


tonight was like a girls' night out for me. with myself as one of the girls. they played dumb dance music and drank vodka and played "i never" and i drank sparkling cider and changed it to pop punk when they werent looking. me and mike were getting DOWN on rockband before the powers of estrogen decided that us having fun wasnt in their game plan for the night. really, an uneventful night. but it was still fun. on the walk home, me and pilar were talking about how cool it is that both of us shrunk our lives down into the tight little ball that it is now. the shit that mattered to us when we were 16 and 17 simply doesnt matter nowadays. im content with who i know. im content with what i do for fun. i dont need shitty people who are just distant names. or places that really arent that cool anyways. i guess thats one of the major differences between being 17 and being 20. the three years is called "growing up". and a lot of it happens in that gap. 90% of my absolute wildest, most intense life changing moments happened in that three year timeframe. so it only makes sense that i cant relate to 17 year olds nowadays. or even sadder, most people who are my age. your whole outlook changes, on everything. and if youre 17 and reading this, then you're probably offended. because thats the 17 year old complex. but keep your offense to yourself, because three years from now when you think about the same things im thinking, you'll look back on yourself and those around you who are younger, and see the difference between 17 and 20. its a lot.